Your Doorbell Rings. You Answer The Door And You Find This On Your Front Porch. . .

. . . You yell into the house, “We got another one!”

                “Throw it with the rest of them.”

                I take the package into another room, a small room off the kitchen that we keep refrigerated. It looks like a place a butcher keeps all his meat because we have all our whole raw food in here. We have whole tigers, lions, cougars, and jaguars lying on the racks, whole polar bears, grizzlies, and wolves hanging on the walls, and whole crocodiles, great white sharks, and anacondas hanging from the ceiling. Next to them, I place the small whole human. It is funny, as I see the stack of human in the corner, how powerful they thought they were. Any of the other animals we eat could easily take down a wimpy human. They are a very soft and squishy animal. Their meat is sweet and tender, not too stringy, and does not have such a sharply defined taste or characteristic like the tenuous meat they would eat. To think, humans would eat such trivial meats like chicken or pork, disgusting and disgraceful. I close the door and leave the kitchen. Now I am hungry, thinking about human sweet pink flesh. I cannot wait to have a large human steak for dinner.  

                                                                                                                                             ~ Alyssa Schnell

Extrovert or Introvert???

I am defiantly an introvert. Whenever I am around many people, even five people can sometimes be a lot, I not only feel shy but I also feel crowded. Even if I know them very well, never feel uncomfortable around them, or was just talking to them; I can still get shy out of nowhere. If I feel too many people are paying attention to me, I feel closed up and nervous. I do not usually speak my mind. I would rather keep to myself. Often I just do not know what to say to someone. Despite my fear of talking aloud to someone, I love it when people talk to me one-on-one. It is responding to them I have trouble doing. I prefer to listen to them instead of telling what I think. I guess sometimes I feel my opinion does not matter, or the person talking to me would not care.

                If I am ever at a party or any place with a lot of people everywhere all at once, I hate it. Being around too many people like that truly drains me. I try to find a place with the least amount of people and just hang out there for the night. The problem is the crowd usually finds me. I feel so tired after having to engage in social interaction, even if I did not do much. Afterwards, I could really use some time left alone. Once I lock myself away for a few hours, someone might think something is wrong, but the time alone makes me feel relaxed.

                Just because I prefer to be alone rather than to be around people does not mean I dislike being with people at all. Of course, I still want to be a part of things. I love spending time with my friends; they are always fun to be around. But sometimes, because of how quiet I can be, I feel like I can easily be forgotten. Sometimes I feel lonely if no one pays ANY attention to me, I do not need much. However, I cannot truly engage with someone if I do not feel welcome, it only makes me feel lonelier. If I find a group of my friends, or perhaps only one, and they are already talking to someone or doing something, I feel like I am intruding on their space. If they acknowledge me and welcome me over, I feel a part of things, (even if they continue their conversation, and I am not a part of it.) I just want to feel like they enjoy having me around.

                                                                           ~Alyssa Schnell

                Here is a guide to understanding Introverts. Trust me, it is helpful, because it is entirely true and spelled out perfectly. J